Three years....and counting.  So much has changed that I can not even remember what it felt like to have written what I wrote that day in Aug. 2012.  And it hurts to look at a photo of my Mom and know that I can no longer give her a hug or apologize for not appreciating her when she was here.  Life sucks.....and I can't find joy in much of anything any more.  May have been a mistake to think I could write again.  Must go now.