Saturday, June 7, 2008

WIll anybody miss him?

So... I killed a bird today. One minute he's flying around, the next minute he's a hood ornament. And the weird thing is ....I started crying. The tears that I am always on the verge of losing control of, the ones that are constantly threatening to cascade out of my face, the ones I mostly manage to restrain....they escaped...because of a dead bird.

Yeah, I know I wasn't actually crying because of a dead bird. I was actually crying because I'm tired of being ugly and not wanting to go anywhere in public, because we got another bill from a collection agency, because I took pics at graduation last night and they suck!!!
I was crying for all the other stupid, silly, important, ridiculous, frustrating things that life is and I felt like crying.

...but a bird did die....and I am sorry.

6 comments:

Nancy W. said...

I hit a dog one time on the way to church and was practically hysterical. (I'll tell you a funny story about that later.)
And Maureen, I really think you are beautiful. Really.

Wendy Melchior said...

"out of sorts" as well, I see.

This Jane said...

oh man the same thing happened to me in a rain storm that I could barely see in anyway...but I swear this thing was an eagle! and I just started shaking and screamed...I actually let go of the wheel. It's ok you cried...sometimes life is just pullin at you like that :) I've been there, I'm still there...

Tesa said...

Hey Meg better a bird than an in law lol at least you won't do time hun lol :) Sorry I don't think it was so much the bird as the stresses of life....you need to relax and know that we are here only for a short time before you know it you will be in Heaven with your Father and the collection ppl don't have his number.......you will be free, loved, happy and STRESS FEE FOREVER AND EVER :)

Ohhh and by the way your gorgeous, beautiful and HOT :P inside and OUT :P u rawk!!!!!!! dont be so hard on urself!

Tesa said...

Ohh man I didn't mean that to sound like you were going to die fast LOL I mean that our life span here on earth for ALL of us is NOT long, its just a skip, hop and a short walked compared to eternity :)

Maureen said...

"I swear this thing was an eagle"

LOL...and thanks Jame, I guess we've all been there (are there:) but it feels so lonely.

and Tesa, you always know how to make me laugh....thanks girlfriend!